I have been struggling to write lately. I had been blaming it on our busy fall schedule, having the house on the market, the move, the holidays…..
But it seems that those were just excuses.
I think I have identified the problem.
Diabetes isn’t funny.
I am a funny person (people tell me this anyway). And I do know, and fully admit, that I always use humor to diffuse unpleasant situations. So I love to write funny shit. And I was blessed with a personality and perspective to always find the funny shit.
But diabetes isn’t funny.
And this blog is about diabetes and my thoughts, feelings and experiences with having a child diagnosed with diabetes. And I passionately want to educate people about this disease and I want to be a source of information for new families facing this awful diagnosis.
But again, I have to say it. Diabetes isn’t funny.
I mean, it’s not even remotely funny.
There is nothing funny about blood sugars in the 500′s with moderate ketones.
And I assure you that a blood sugar of 31 is not going to get a chuckle from me.
I promise you that worrying about whether my son will loose his eyesight or keep his limbs, is not the least bit whimsical.
Hoping and praying that my son will someday find someone who will love him and be willing to take on the beast that is this disease does not crack me up.
So, all I am left to write about is the sad, scary, lonely, depressing feelings I have about diabetes.
And that sucks.
It bums me out.
I have already written posts about how type 1 has nothing to do with sugar, and that it really is about a confused immune system and bad luck. I have written many times about how tired I am now that I have to set alarms and check blood sugars all night long and how that contributes to anxiety and feelings of depression.
Sure I have peppered in a few non-diabetes related posts about ants, laundry, computers and make-up (this one is hilarious-if I do say so myself! And totally true!)
I’ve even written more than one post about not having anything to write about!
But this blog is supposed to be a source for others going through the same thing to find valuable information about timely, targeted diabetes information!
Ok, so I’ve made a decision.
This is my blog and I can do whatever I want. I didn’t sign any contract to ONLY provide diabetes related posts!
And the fact is, that while others that are going through the same thing as me DO need diabetes information, they are still regular people who need to laugh and get AWAY from diabetes sometimes.
Sometimes you need to read about how someone else’s 5 year-old had a MASSIVE code brown in the MEN’S room at a high school during your other son’s basketball tournament and how you had to have your oldest son stand guard outside and not let any men in and how in the end you had to abort the underwear AND shorts AND shoes and usher the 5 year-old out the side door before you either got chastised by the janitor or arrested for having a half-naked 5 year-old in a public place. (Yeah, pretty sure we are not welcome at Shawnee Mission West High School anymore).
So, my friends, as I am entering the second year of my blog, I am taking it a new direction. If I’m ever going to write again. I’m going to have to start including some non D material.
After all, the name of the blog is WifeMomPancreas, because I am not just a pancreas!